Freddie Brazier chocked back tears as he revealed having ‘no memories’ of late mum Jade Goody during the latest episode of Celebrity Race Across The Wold, which airs on Wednesday.
TV personality Jade tragically died in 2009 aged 27 after being diagnosed with cervical cancer the year before. Freddie was just four when she died, while brother Bobby, now 21, was five.
Joined by his father on the BBC challenge show, Freddie, 19, opened up about his grief in heartbreaking scenes before paying tribute to the Big Brother star on the anniversary of her death amid their travels in Salvador.
He said: ‘I lost my mum when I was four and that was on Mother’s Day, which is really hard. I don’t really like showing my emotions. I don’t even speak to my dad much about my mum either. I just avoid it. I prefer to bottle it up’.
‘I don’t want to feel like I’m a burden to them. A lot of my memories that I have of my mum have come from watching a documentary, YouTube clips, newspapers, they are not my memories’.
Freddie Brazier chocked back tears as he revealed having ‘no memories’ of late mum Jade Goody during the latest episode of Celebrity Race Across The Wold, which airs on Wednesday
Jade tragically died in 2009 aged 27 after being diagnosed with cervical cancer the year before. Freddie was just four when she died, while brother Bobby was five (pictured 2006)
While choking back tears he continued: ‘I don’t really remember being held by my mum. If I had more memories of her, it would have made it a whole lot harder for me.
‘But I think I would rather that than not really remember the things that I had done with my mum. It’s just life really and I’ve kind of accepted that’.
Father and son later agreed to pay tribute to Jade on Mother’s Day and headed to a famous beauty spot, with Freddie saying as they searched for it: ‘Maybe Mum’s pushing us in the direction of where we need to go.’
Before coming across it and adding: ‘Thank you, Mother Nature.’
Last week Jeff left viewers in tears as he opened up about helping his sons after Jade’s death.
In emotional scenes the father spoke candidly saying: ‘I think when the boys lost their mum I really doubled down on putting all of my time, effort, attention, focus on my children,’ Jeff said.
‘I needed to be there, helping them to navigate whatever the future was going to look like for them given their loss. And I’m still playing that role.
‘But yeah the more Fred does for himself, I know that he can start to push on in life.’
Joined by his father on the show, Freddie, 19, opened up about his grief in heartbreaking scenes before paying tribute to the Big Brother star on the anniversary of her death
He said: ‘I lost my mum when I was four and that was on Mother’s Day, which is really hard. I don’t really like showing my emotions. I don’t even speak to my dad much about my mum either (pictured 2007)
While choking back tears he continued: ‘I don’t really remember being held by my mum. If I had more memories of her, it would have made it a whole lot harder for me (pictured with brother Bobby and dad Jeff)
In a later scene, Jeff and Freddy were enjoying a short break to take in the breathtaking views when he did some self-reflection.
‘It’s hard to switch off and sometimes I think I’m being too serious,’ Jeff said. ‘Just everything is my responsibility, and it has been for such a long time, because I think as a man you probably don’t rate your chances of coping, so you do what comes naturally to you which is to take all the responsibility and just focus on the situation.
‘I have absolutely 100 per cent lost the ability to play but I think that it’s something that i need to regain. I think I need Freddie to show me really, and I need to get back to… I need to get back to what I used to be. I’m sure that’s possible.’
The father-son duo shared a sweet moment as Freddie convinced his dad to relax and leave the bags downstairs while they admired the view. Jeff went upstairs to find his son sitting down with a dog.
Last week Jeff left viewers in tears as he opened up about helping his sons after Jade’s death
The emotional moments left viewers at home tearing up, as they took to X, formerly Twitter, to share their admiration for Jeff
‘I just wanted you to know that you’re absolutely right,’ Jeff told his son. ‘I need to get better at just relaxing.’
Freddie: ‘After this trip I feel like things could be a lot better than they have been.’
The emotional moments left viewers at home tearing up, as they took to X, formerly Twitter, to share their admiration for Jeff.
They wrote: ‘I honestly cannot put into words how much I love Jeff Brazier,’
‘Anyone else crying at Freddie and Jeff Brazier? Because I’m a mess..,’;
‘Jeff opening up on taking things seriously and his responsibility as a father since Jade’s passing. This moment is so heartbreaking. Jeff you’re the best dad to your children and Jade would be proud,’;
‘Jeff Brazier is a great dad. He is teaching Freddie adult responsibility and decision making in a calm and non-judgemental way. Impressive,’;
‘Jeff and Fred. I can’t cope with them. So adorable,’; ‘Jade Goody chose well with Jeff Brazier. He is a really impressive man.’
Just after the full lineup was revealed , Freddie revealed when asked if he was looking forward to the series that he was excited for the rare chance to spend time with his dad
