Gordon Ramsay’s wife Tana, 50, recalls her ‘feeling of emptiness’ after suffering the devastation of miscarrying their stillborn son Rocky

Gordon Ramsay‘s wife Tana recently opened up about the heartache she felt after she miscarried their stillborn son Rocky.

The 50-year-old mother of six, was five months into her pregnancy when she lost her son Rocky in 2016.

Speaking on Giovanna Fletcher’s podcast Happy Mum Happy Baby, the mother revealed that she suffered a bleeding problem during her pregnancy which was being monitored for several weeks. 

However, Tana told Giovanna the bleeding got much worse and she eventually went back to the hospital. 

She said: ‘I sort of leant over to speak to Gordon. and then my waters broke. It just went from everything’s fine, we’re just monitoring you, to the baby’s going to be born, and that was the most traumatic thing ever.’ 

‘There were parts of it that I almost can’t remember. Because I’ve blocked it out, I’d never had a miscarriage.’ 

Gordon Ramsay’s wife Tana recently opened up about the heartache she felt after she miscarried their stillborn son Rocky (pictured in April)

Tana, who is a former teacher, shares six children with the chef, 57, including Megan, 26, twins Holly and Jack, 24, Tilly, 22, five-year-old Oscar, and baby Jesse who was born in November last year

Speaking on Giovanna Fletcher’s podcast Happy Mum Happy Baby , the mother revealed that she was monitored during her pregnancy. However, her water broke and she was told she would ‘have to give birth’ (pictured on Holly Ramsay’s Instagram last year)

‘I remember them just saying to me “there’s nothing we can do now you’re going to have to give birth” and I remember Gordon just looked at me and said “I’m not going anywhere. I’m staying in for this.”‘

Tana also discussed coping with the loss and having to explain it to their other children. 

She said: ‘He was just the most perfect little boy.’ 

‘But it’s like this tiny tiny little doll. And I remember that when they came in after Jack said “Did I have a brother or a sister?” I said “Oh it was a brother” and it was really hard.’

‘It’s that feeling of emptiness and then the next morning you’re leaving the hospital and you haven’t got a baby.’ 

Tana, who is a former teacher, shares six children with the chef, 57, including Megan, 26, twins Holly and Jack, 24, Tilly, 22, five-year-old Oscar, and baby Jesse who was born in November last year.

During the podcast, Tana admitted she resented having to do the bulk of the childcare and found it difficult at times to see her husband relax – despite them both agreeing that she would take on most duties while he worked. 

During the podcast, Tana also admitted she resented having to do the bulk of the childcare and found it difficult at times to see her husband relax – despite them both agreeing that she would take on most duties while he worked (pictured in 2019)

She confessed: ‘I’d be lying if I said “No it’s fine I took this on” and there were times it felt really hard, but you get over it’ 

While discussing whether their prior agreement worked for her, Tana said: ‘Yes, but it doesn’t mean that sometimes you didn’t resent it.’ 

‘When I say resent, it’s just sometimes I’d be like “Do you need to sit on the sofa and rest and watch the news and have 10 minutes to yourself? because I can’t do that.”‘

She continued: ‘I’d be lying if I said “No it’s fine I took this on” and there were times it felt really hard, but you get over it.’ 

Tana also discussed with Giovanna her and Gordon’s fertility struggles and revealed why he was not present at the birth of their first three children.

She said: ‘He’d have gone all squeamish and probably fainted, and all the attention would have been on him. I was like, no, this is my moment.’

The mother then told Giovanna that after losing their son Rocky things changed and they decided he should be present. 

She said: ‘I don’t know what changed. It’s just he wanted to be there. I felt it would be nice. It was after what we went through with losing Rocky.’ 

If you have been affected by this story, advice and support can be found at the Miscarriage Association. You can call them on 01924 200799 or email info@miscarriageassociation.org.uk